Why I Hate My Life So Much!!!

1. i'm not happy with it...
2. i'm always attached to my past, and i can't stop it
3. i'm alone.
4. i'm stupid
5. i felt like im useless
6. i have a broken family
7. i did something that hurts my auntie a lot!
8. i lost something very important from my family
9. i just lost my wallet, pouch bag and my company id last saturday,
10. i can't remember where i lost it
11. i know i'm smart but i don't know where to use it
12. i am unfortunate
13. i want to study but i can't
14. i always wanted to help but there's always something missing
15. i felt not comming to work lately
16. i am tired
17. i missed my friends
18. i am not used of not having fun
19. i missed my night life
20. i missed my mother
21. i missed my family
22. i envy someone
23. i love someone but i don't know if is still worth it
24. i feel im just so alone!!!
25. this feeling i have right now is killing me and i dont like it
26. i had a suicidal attempt before, but i realized, i am intelligent enough to think its worthless to do such things..
27. i want to do a lot of things but i cant start a single of them
28. i want something that i cant have
29. i need something that seems impossible to happen
30. i want my family back
31. they don't understand me
32. i was crying
33. i am soft-hearted
34. i am weak but again i know i am smart
35. i am tired again!
36. i want to do charity but i don't have much resources
37. i am alone
39. i need my family
40. i missed my childhood
41. i missed when my family was happy eating together on one table
42. i missed the way they cook
43. i missed Christmas
44. i never had Christmas again since then
45. i missed New Year celebrations
46. i am not maturing
47. i missed my best friend
48. i missed going to malls with my friends
49. i missed playing games
50. i want them back
51. i have friends but they're not there 24-7
52. i envy my friends having great stories about their family
53. i envy my friends being happy with their life
54. the day is gloomy.
55. i want something that i cant
56. i am hoping for something that requires a lot of time
57. i failed
58. im cold
59. i felt like i was left alone
60. i hate my past
61. i cant recover
62. i dont know what to say
63. someone hates me
64. someone is starting to dislike me
65. i need more but its not enough
66. my hair is a mess today
67. im sick
68. im depressed
69. no one can help me but only me, myself and i can put everything back together
70. i lost big bucks coz of my stupid wallet
71. i am not improving on my work
72. someone doesn't realize that i love that someone so much
73. i lost my family picture on my wallet
74. i lost my company id
75. i lost my cards
76. i lost myself
77. i might lose my job
78. i lost some important papers from my wallet
79. i lost my one and only family picture from my wallet
80. i loosing hope
81. im hopeless
82. im pathetic
83. i want to go out but dont have money
84. i dont trust someone anymore
85. someone never realizes that it breaks my heart
86. my heart is bleeding
87. im felt that im alone again
88. saying goodbye is so hard for me
89. i am no longer sure about someone
90. im sad
91. i missed my mom
92. i missed my grandmom
93. happiness only comes very often
94. happiness comes once but sadness comes thrice
95. i am unfortunate
96. i hate some people
97. my heart was closed already
98. i want my family to be complete again
99. i need my family back
100. i just hate myself

now, why i am still alive? coz God is always with me and He is comforting me and giving me strength, telling me not to give up in some ways, even though i never visited the church again....