IMMATURITY BOW!

yes immaturity tingin ko sa lahat ng sasabihin ko... or baka naman bitterness ewan...
sabi nga nila it takes time to know one
well ganun na nga, takes time to know one pero huli na ang lahat nang lubusan mong nakilala ang isang tao...
it takes one hello to start a new life
yes...that is true and one goodbye to end that chapter which is also true
madami ka ngang friends, iba iba naman gusto nila
meron ngang manliligaw sau, di mo naman gusto
meron kang pinapacute-an, di ka naman nya trip
meron ka ngang gusto sa kanya, gusto ka rin nya.. pero fubu (fcuk-buddy) naman pala kau... hanggang dun lang, wala love, wala fiendship, siguro friendship meron pero.. isang text lang sa para malipasan ang libog nyu..
super bait mo nga di naman nila maapreciate
stick to one ka nga, eh mas malandi ka naman sa pokpok
may itsura ka naman, mababa naman confidence mo
ung iba naman, pera mo lang habol nila sayo... eh madamot ka, so parang wala din
oh yeah, cute ka, pero may mas cute sayu, pero sex lang pala habol sau
maykaya ka naman, di ka naman masyadong nakakalabas
may work ka, may work or pasok din sya, at malayu pa inuuwian nyung dalawa so wala din
marunong ka ngang magtiwala, eh ikaw naman pala mismo ang two timer
malas mo lang pag nagkahulihan... pero be proud, malakas dating mo.. imagine dalawa nagkakagusto sayo so it means madami pa dyan ang tanga... 2 out of millions... so ok lang di ba?
tsaka isa pa kung ayaw mo sa isang butil ng bigas, eh ok lang, kasi meron pa namang isang sako ng bigas di ba?
siguro masaya nga kung mahalin mo muna sarili mo
siguro mas maganda mahalin mo na lang sarili mo
o di ba para kang tangang nililigawan mo sarili mo, pero maganda dun, di ka masasaktan kasi lagi andyan sarili mo.. para ka nga lang tanga
ay naku, wala lang akong magawa ...

THE MIST!

ok this is "THE MIST" movie....
i dont want to say so much about this movie coz i both love and hate it...
but hey this is one of the masterpieces of STEPHEN KING... he is really a sick genius...
i dont want to say how the story goes but just some sort of synopsis...
this is a monster movie.. its something like the "CLOVERFIELD" but not like that.. this one is better... this is a very different movie... well yeah.. its like surviving from the monsters... but if you analyze the movie, its all about something ...... im sure you'll gonna love it and hate it... i dont want to elaborate how the story goes.... but to tell you honestly, this movie made me say "SHIT!" a lot of times at the end... it doesnt have any twist and turn... but you would really think how does the story ends... it could be sad, it could be a good ending, but you have to watch it for you to know what really happened on the movie....very unpredictable! a one of a kind story ... my rating (out of 5 as the highest) .. 5 story, 3.5effects, 10 for ending! a must see! its like.. saying "oh my God!" thousand times.. now im overdoing it.. hehhee

i think this movie is telling us how to deal with our problems... i think monsters on this movie is like our problems and the characters were our different attitudes or on how we deal on our problems, how are we going to solve it.... i dont know... i just made these things up hehehe... but if you have a dvd of it.... never fast forward it... but play it from the very start... coz all thoughout the movie, you wouldn't really know how will the story ends.... but i just want to warn you that for me this is the best and worst movie i'd ever seen.... but then again... it's STEPHEN KING's... no doubt... a genius!

i wish i could give you some spoilers just what i always did ... but no... i wouldnt do that.. coz you really have to watch this movie! its unforgettable!..

by the way.... the ending is different from the book (or should is say novella) of Stephen King's The Mist... it was FRANK DARABONT who wrote e different ending.. and he is the director too of the movie...

JUST WATCH IT!

Pour que tu m'aimes encore

I. TRANSLATION


Please note these translations and explanations were just copied from a particular website... lost the site address though but thanks to him/her... i just love this song.. though its on french...


POUR QUE TU M'AIMES ENCORE (French lyrics by Jean-Jacques Goldman)
"So that you'll love me again"

J'ai compris tous les mots, j'ai bien compris, merci
Raisonnable et nouveau, c'est ainsi par ici
Que les choses ont change, que les fleurs ont fane
Que le temps d'avant, c'etait le temps d'avant
Que si tout zappe et lasse, les amours aussi passent

I understood all the words, thanks, I've got the message
Sensible and new, it's like that over here too
Things have changed, the flowers have faded
The past is the past
If everything zaps and bores us, love also passes off

Il faut que tu saches

You have to know

J'irai chercher ton coeur si tu l'emportes ailleurs
Meme si dans tes danses, d'autres dansent tes heures
J'irai chercher ton ame dans les froids dans les flammes
Je te jetterai des sorts pour que tu m'aimes encore

I'll go get your heart if you take it away
Even if your hours of dancing are danced with others
I'll go get your soul in the cold in the flames
I'll cast spells over you so that you'll love me again

Fallait pas commencer m'attirer me toucher
Fallait pas tant donner moi je sais pas jouer
On me dit qu'aujourd'hui, on me dit que les autres font ainsi
Je ne suis pas les autres
Avant que l'on s'attache, avant que l'on se gache

You shouldn't have begun, attracted me, touched me
You shouldn't have given so much, I don't know how to play games
They tell me that today, they tell me that others do it like this
I'm not the others
Before the involvement, before the break-up

Je veux que tu saches

I want you to know

J'irai chercher ton coeur si tu l'emportes ailleurs
Meme si dans tes danses, d'autres dansent tes heures
J'irai chercher ton ame dans les froids dans les flammes
Je te jetterai des sorts pour que tu m'aimes encore

I'll go get your heart if you take it away
Even if your hours of dancing are danced with others
I'll go get your soul in the cold in the flames
I'll cast spells over you so that you'll love me again

Je trouverai des langages pour chanter tes louanges
Je ferai nos bagages pour d'infinies vendanges
Les formules magiques des marabouts d'Afrique
J'les dirai sans remords pour que tu m'aimes encore

I'll find languages to praise you in
I'll pack our luggage for endless journeys
The magic enchantments of the African marabou
I'll say them without remorse so that you'll love me again

Je m'inventerai reine pour que tu me retiennes
Je me ferai nouvelle pour que le feu reprenne
Je deviendrai ces autres qui te donnent du plaisir
Vos jeux seront les autres si tel est ton desir
Plus brillante plus belle pour une autre etincelle
Je me changerai en or pour que tu m'aimes encore

I'll crown myself queen so that you'll hold me again
I'll renew myself to kindle old flames
I'll be these others who give you pleasure
Your games will be ours if that's what you wish
More brilliant more beautiful, for another spark
I'll turn myself into gold so that you'll love me again

****

II. INTERPRETATION

"Pour que tu m'aimes encore" is about being unable to accept the end
of a relationship. It is about obsession and the refusal to move on.
It is about what happens when you lose something you thought would
last forever.

It takes two people to create a relationship, but only one to break
it off. So what happens to the one who doesn't feel it has to end?
"Pour que tu m'aimes encore" is sung by such a woman. She has been
left by her man, and is desperate to have him back. In the song, she
tells us what she's ready to do, and why she feels so cheated.

The words she says that she has understood are those of him breaking
up with her. He was being sensible, but it was unexpected. If their
love had been a flower, it had faded. If everything zaps (i.e.
changes rapidly and constantly), then love is no exception. However,
this is what *he* said; she is of another opinion. She understands
him, but she doesn't agree with him.

Expressing her own view on the matter, she ignores the words she
described so eloquently in the first paragraph. When she says that
she'll go get his heart if he takes it away, the "heart" is his love
for her. If he dances with others (probably a euphemism for making
love), it won't matter to her. She will make him love her again.

She then tells him that if he didn't want the relationship to last
in the first place, he shouldn't have started it. He shouldn't have
given so much of himself that she would fall in love with him. She
says that she can't play the games that the others play: short-lived
relationships without any commitment or future. According to the
woman, before starting a relationship, the man should've known that
she wouldn't let go easily.

The marabou - whose song the woman evokes - is a West African bird,
a special kind of stork. (Whether that bird has a particularly
enchanting song is beyond my knowledge. )

In the final paragraph, the woman appears very confused. The song
has been building up to this point, where basically she says that
she'll become even more lovable and attractive: she'll be the Queen
(he is the King). In a very submissive tone ("if that's what you
wish"), she tells him she'll do whatever he wants her to.

"Pour que tu m'aimes encore" is both optimistic and depressive. It's
about having found true love and wanting to hold on to it, but it's
also about not realizing that there are two people in a relationship
with an equal right to end it. I think that people who are in the
woman's situation are likely to agree with her.

SUMMER!

Its summer time and its freaking hot like hell!!! ... my room is filled with empty bottles of water and gatorade to prevent heatstroke and dehydration... coz you know i am so fragile! ... but anyway, hope its june (i think its rainy season by that month) already coz i really hate summer.... but that's only because of this heat wave!...

but anyway,i dont have any plans (yet) of how am i going to spend my summer days... well actually, i don't need to plan at all coz i need to work... not unless if i resign from my job early... but of course, i really need to think about it... there are only two reasons why i want to leave my job... first, i want to study again.. secondly, im getting bored, well, i dont like doing things over and over again, but i can do that if i can also enjoy my private life while at work... but then again, this kind of work requires sacrifices (i don't think i can do that)... everything must be balanced... work, life and family.... but yeah yeah yeah.. yada yada yada about work.. hate talking about work....im getting out of my true topic...

and yes of course, summer, ---- heat wave, heat stroke, fever, dehydration, headache, diarrhea... these are the illnesses that i usually get every summer... thats why i need to take a lot of water, cotton shirts, air, water, then water... cold shower of course....

swimming? of course... but it should be at night .... dont like getting into the pool under the sun... coz i really hate the sun.... (the heat.. to be specific)

how bout getting tanned... it never crossed to my mind...

hmmmm how bout getting new look... ahhhh, perhaps i can do that... Tony and Guy here i come again...

Uno De Los Momentos Más Felices De Mi Vida

Uno de los momentos más felices de mi vida...

it was march 2008, one of the most happiest moments in my life... a lot of things happen and i actually gave everything that i could for this month.. i just cant explain why i felt like i am "me" again after all these months, weeks and days. i felt like im human again... its quite exaggerated, i know, but i really cant deny the fact that im so happy...

im happy because for the first time after all these months, i had a weekend off... i missed everything that i usually do during weekends... cofee bars, restaurants, mall hoppings, disco bars, being totally drunk until i drop and going home with a splitting headache with my friends... i missed my night life... i missed staying at home on sundays, i missed almost evyerthing... i felt like im the steve warren as before... i missed talking and laughing loudly with my friends, dancing with them on the dance floor, flirting, (lolz!)... in other words, i missed my "gimik days on saturdays"

weekends is the best days of the month, or of the entire year, that's the only days where most of your friends can be together, that's the only days where you can see people with their families, the only days where almost everyone doesnt think about work but fun...

hate talking about work....

if only i could be normal again... and when can i experience another Uno De Los Momentos Más Felices De Mi Vida

Hard To Say Goodbye

i just love this song..... Hard To Say Goodbye by Celine Dion and Paul Anka... below is the lyrics of the song...



There's something in your eyes that's far too revealing
Why must it be like this a love without feelin'
Something is wrong with you I know
I see it in your eyes
Believe me when I say
It's gonna be Okay

I told you from the start I won't be demanding
I won't be demanding
If you have a change of heart I'll be understanding
I'll be understanding
When love becomes a broken heart and dreams begin to die
Believe me when I say
We'll work it out some way

I'll never try to hold you back
I wouldn't try controlling you
If it's what you want
It's what I want
I want what's best for you
And if there's something else that you're looking for
I'll be the first to help you try
Believe me when I say
It's hard to say goodbye

We've lost that loving touch we used to feel so much
I try to hide the truth that's in my eyes
The love without feeling
But when I feel we're not in love, I know I'm losing you
Believe when I say
We'll work it out some way

I'll never try to hold you back
I wouldn't try controlling you
If it's what you want
It's what I want
I want what's best for you
And if there's something else that you're looking for
I'll be the first to help you try
Believe me when I say
It's hard to say goodbye

Don't say goodbye

If it's what you want
It's what I want
I want what's best for you

I'll never try to hold you back
I wouldn't try controlling you
If it's what you want
It's what I want
I want what's best for you
And if there's something else that you're looking for
I'll be the first to help you try
Believe me when I say
It's hard to say goodbye

I'll never try to hold you back
I wouldn't try controlling you
If it's what you want
It's what I want
I want what's best for you
And if there's something else that you're looking for
I'll be the first to help you try

Why I Hate My Life So Much!!!

1. i'm not happy with it...
2. i'm always attached to my past, and i can't stop it
3. i'm alone.
4. i'm stupid
5. i felt like im useless
6. i have a broken family
7. i did something that hurts my auntie a lot!
8. i lost something very important from my family
9. i just lost my wallet, pouch bag and my company id last saturday,
10. i can't remember where i lost it
11. i know i'm smart but i don't know where to use it
12. i am unfortunate
13. i want to study but i can't
14. i always wanted to help but there's always something missing
15. i felt not comming to work lately
16. i am tired
17. i missed my friends
18. i am not used of not having fun
19. i missed my night life
20. i missed my mother
21. i missed my family
22. i envy someone
23. i love someone but i don't know if is still worth it
24. i feel im just so alone!!!
25. this feeling i have right now is killing me and i dont like it
26. i had a suicidal attempt before, but i realized, i am intelligent enough to think its worthless to do such things..
27. i want to do a lot of things but i cant start a single of them
28. i want something that i cant have
29. i need something that seems impossible to happen
30. i want my family back
31. they don't understand me
32. i was crying
33. i am soft-hearted
34. i am weak but again i know i am smart
35. i am tired again!
36. i want to do charity but i don't have much resources
37. i am alone
39. i need my family
40. i missed my childhood
41. i missed when my family was happy eating together on one table
42. i missed the way they cook
43. i missed Christmas
44. i never had Christmas again since then
45. i missed New Year celebrations
46. i am not maturing
47. i missed my best friend
48. i missed going to malls with my friends
49. i missed playing games
50. i want them back
51. i have friends but they're not there 24-7
52. i envy my friends having great stories about their family
53. i envy my friends being happy with their life
54. the day is gloomy.
55. i want something that i cant
56. i am hoping for something that requires a lot of time
57. i failed
58. im cold
59. i felt like i was left alone
60. i hate my past
61. i cant recover
62. i dont know what to say
63. someone hates me
64. someone is starting to dislike me
65. i need more but its not enough
66. my hair is a mess today
67. im sick
68. im depressed
69. no one can help me but only me, myself and i can put everything back together
70. i lost big bucks coz of my stupid wallet
71. i am not improving on my work
72. someone doesn't realize that i love that someone so much
73. i lost my family picture on my wallet
74. i lost my company id
75. i lost my cards
76. i lost myself
77. i might lose my job
78. i lost some important papers from my wallet
79. i lost my one and only family picture from my wallet
80. i loosing hope
81. im hopeless
82. im pathetic
83. i want to go out but dont have money
84. i dont trust someone anymore
85. someone never realizes that it breaks my heart
86. my heart is bleeding
87. im felt that im alone again
88. saying goodbye is so hard for me
89. i am no longer sure about someone
90. im sad
91. i missed my mom
92. i missed my grandmom
93. happiness only comes very often
94. happiness comes once but sadness comes thrice
95. i am unfortunate
96. i hate some people
97. my heart was closed already
98. i want my family to be complete again
99. i need my family back
100. i just hate myself

now, why i am still alive? coz God is always with me and He is comforting me and giving me strength, telling me not to give up in some ways, even though i never visited the church again....